So! Today I take my senior pictures. Hm EXCITED MUCH?! Yes I am.
Im a Senior now. Also after this week I only have monday and tuesday to go to school. Yayes.
Im super ready for my finals. Im about to super study my book for my test. Bye <3
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Boyyyy, Oh BOY!
Today was amazingly fun! It was a mini girls day, plus one guy. Who shall not be named. o.o
Anywhoo! I was with Ate Myrrh, Ate Tina and ahemm. The boy...
So's we went to yami yami, and some other place that isnt important enought to remember the name. Though I had some awesome gyoza from there. [: I think it was Wasabi. Im not sure.
Tomorrow is graduation, OHHHH mann. This will be crazy, because most of my friends are graduating, Im going to get sooooo teary. [: But that's okeyyz.
Saturday BBs, and Sunday Church hopefully. If Aaron wont mind taking meh. HINT HINT!! XD <====== Blah Blah I need a ride sunday... Ermm, Soon Exams are coming, Im prepared. Recording for one tomorrow. Eeeek! Sundresses and all black, OH MY!!
Well, be back laters'z!
Anywhoo! I was with Ate Myrrh, Ate Tina and ahemm. The boy...
So's we went to yami yami, and some other place that isnt important enought to remember the name. Though I had some awesome gyoza from there. [: I think it was Wasabi. Im not sure.
Tomorrow is graduation, OHHHH mann. This will be crazy, because most of my friends are graduating, Im going to get sooooo teary. [: But that's okeyyz.
Saturday BBs, and Sunday Church hopefully. If Aaron wont mind taking meh. HINT HINT!! XD <====== Blah Blah I need a ride sunday... Ermm, Soon Exams are coming, Im prepared. Recording for one tomorrow. Eeeek! Sundresses and all black, OH MY!!
Well, be back laters'z!
Monday, June 1, 2009
Yay.
As of today its just 12 days left. (including today!!)
I cant WAIT til this week is over because then it will be just 7 days!! [:
W00t. School time was fun, but summer is EVEN better. I get to spend it with my friends and my associates. No more working, no more school work... best of all. LATE NIGHT!!!! NO SLEEPING!!!! AND NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO rules! I love summer. My mom doesnt care WHAT I do or WHERE I go! As long as I ask of course. I'll be sure to use my freedom wisely. >.>
So its 6:35 am.... Bus comes at 7:00am....
Should I quickly nap?
Nahh, But idk whattt to do....
Dad just called to remind me about July 24-26. [:
Myrtle Beach!!
I cant WAIT til this week is over because then it will be just 7 days!! [:
W00t. School time was fun, but summer is EVEN better. I get to spend it with my friends and my associates. No more working, no more school work... best of all. LATE NIGHT!!!! NO SLEEPING!!!! AND NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO rules! I love summer. My mom doesnt care WHAT I do or WHERE I go! As long as I ask of course. I'll be sure to use my freedom wisely. >.>
So its 6:35 am.... Bus comes at 7:00am....
Should I quickly nap?
Nahh, But idk whattt to do....
Dad just called to remind me about July 24-26. [:
Myrtle Beach!!
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Cant she learn?
I just dont understand. No yes I do. She's not happy about my change. I dont really know how to feel; but as of now. I dont careee.
I sometimes have feelings of anger still but today proved my anger doesnt reach any dangerous levels. I just simply replied to her, may I add... 4 text messages in a row, with an "Oh... I see."
She always gets ten times of crazy and just to get my way, or win, I get twenty times of crazy, yelling cussing, and being just soooooo greasy. But today, the me I wanted to be, shown through. I simply said. "Oh I see." Picked up the phone, called her and talked to her of course.
But as I text her "You're not worthless, I never said that, but being around you can be overwhelming. Though take into thought that you;re the only person I tried to help
'Get right with God.' "
I dont feel angry at her for yelling, only that she insults God in such a way. Its not even ABOUT ME. Nothing is about me.
I feel too insulted that a supposed best friend does not like my new connection with God Almighty.
My INSIGNIFICANT friend, doesnt like my connection with GOD ALMIGHTY.
Humph. The nerve. She's lucky I found patience. So lucky. As am I.
This is the easiest way to relieve anger before it boils over. I found my release. Ughh, I used to just talk with bias people who I knew would take MY side. Just so I could bash people and feel good about myself. But now I dont want that, I just with to avoid conflict.
It feels bad living rightous and watching other people live so dry. So wrong. Lord help me.
I sometimes have feelings of anger still but today proved my anger doesnt reach any dangerous levels. I just simply replied to her, may I add... 4 text messages in a row, with an "Oh... I see."
She always gets ten times of crazy and just to get my way, or win, I get twenty times of crazy, yelling cussing, and being just soooooo greasy. But today, the me I wanted to be, shown through. I simply said. "Oh I see." Picked up the phone, called her and talked to her of course.
But as I text her "You're not worthless, I never said that, but being around you can be overwhelming. Though take into thought that you;re the only person I tried to help
'Get right with God.' "
I dont feel angry at her for yelling, only that she insults God in such a way. Its not even ABOUT ME. Nothing is about me.
I feel too insulted that a supposed best friend does not like my new connection with God Almighty.
My INSIGNIFICANT friend, doesnt like my connection with GOD ALMIGHTY.
Humph. The nerve. She's lucky I found patience. So lucky. As am I.
This is the easiest way to relieve anger before it boils over. I found my release. Ughh, I used to just talk with bias people who I knew would take MY side. Just so I could bash people and feel good about myself. But now I dont want that, I just with to avoid conflict.
It feels bad living rightous and watching other people live so dry. So wrong. Lord help me.
Friday, May 29, 2009
Refreshed or What?
I want so SSSSSSCREAM! SHOUT SO LOUD!!! YIPPIE! I just feel so randomly happy. But at the same time Im so upset.
School is over for the week! Thats amazingly good because that means YOUTH GROUPS BBS//
When I told my classmates I coulnd twork on the project this weekend because I had Bible study they just giggled. One called me cute. And I appriciate that. really. but uhm... poor dear.
The other laughed at me. And I only replied with "we'll see who's laughing it up when God's judgement day comes..."
And she just laughed some more. Poor girls.
At lunch Chris Crampton, my ex crush, and also my close friends ex boyfriend, called me a nerd for loving Bible study. I told him it wasnt funny and he needed God. What does that rude fellow say?
"You over there 'praiiiiiise the lord!'"
Of course I have a shocked expression. "Not to pass judgement on you Chris but you're going DOWN."
"I DONT CARE" He says. He doesnt CARE?! Well he should!! Goodness. When I tell him I dont drink, smoke or fornicate, he praises me. But when I tell that I go to bible study like nobody's business.... he laughs? This poor fellow even hates his own race. How can I get through to him?
Why is it that If Im so precious, and on the right path. People are laughing!
Are people really so ignorant?
Oh dear. Anyways besides that Im estatic about BBS this weekend. [: It WILL be fufilling.
Boy do I have a Verse to share with Lizelle and the girlies [:
But that's a secret, I'll share later after saturday!
Hmm. Im afraid that I wont be able to pay for college. See, we have the money but, My mother wants to keep it for after college so that I have a secured future. Thats all bean and gravy but... How will I pay for college then If my 'rents dont pay? IM NOT PAYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I REFUSE.
Uh -Uh NO WAY JOSE!~
>:[ mehhh. Anyways..
Thank you God for bringing me this far, or rather , helping me to stay sane.
School is over for the week! Thats amazingly good because that means YOUTH GROUPS BBS//
When I told my classmates I coulnd twork on the project this weekend because I had Bible study they just giggled. One called me cute. And I appriciate that. really. but uhm... poor dear.
The other laughed at me. And I only replied with "we'll see who's laughing it up when God's judgement day comes..."
And she just laughed some more. Poor girls.
At lunch Chris Crampton, my ex crush, and also my close friends ex boyfriend, called me a nerd for loving Bible study. I told him it wasnt funny and he needed God. What does that rude fellow say?
"You over there 'praiiiiiise the lord!'"
Of course I have a shocked expression. "Not to pass judgement on you Chris but you're going DOWN."
"I DONT CARE" He says. He doesnt CARE?! Well he should!! Goodness. When I tell him I dont drink, smoke or fornicate, he praises me. But when I tell that I go to bible study like nobody's business.... he laughs? This poor fellow even hates his own race. How can I get through to him?
Why is it that If Im so precious, and on the right path. People are laughing!
Are people really so ignorant?
Oh dear. Anyways besides that Im estatic about BBS this weekend. [: It WILL be fufilling.
Boy do I have a Verse to share with Lizelle and the girlies [:
But that's a secret, I'll share later after saturday!
Hmm. Im afraid that I wont be able to pay for college. See, we have the money but, My mother wants to keep it for after college so that I have a secured future. Thats all bean and gravy but... How will I pay for college then If my 'rents dont pay? IM NOT PAYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I REFUSE.
Uh -Uh NO WAY JOSE!~
>:[ mehhh. Anyways..
Thank you God for bringing me this far, or rather , helping me to stay sane.
Sometimes its easy!
Today... Oh today. Was it glorious indeed.
I was able to get my classwork done in Trigonometry!
Unfortunately for me, I realized my project for my AP Language class is due the day of finals...
DUN DUN DUNN. Which I believe is June 15. For that class at least.
I need to record scenes constructed by moi. Let us hope I remember to ask people this weekend for help. I need actors. >.> HAHA That's what youth groups are for! Kidding.
I hope that I can get through all of my finals quick and stable. I don't want to fail a class because of some dumb final. I've been spending a lot of time praising and praying, and no time with my face in the books. >.<
I need to start studying. Ughh. I really don't see it necessary, but I don't want to fail.
It's funny how people think I'm not as smart as I am because of my appearance. They probably perceive that I do bare minimum in my classes, and that I take just what is required of me. What they don't know is that I take the most difficult of classes for some people, but for me... they are like putting icing on a cake. It's difficult, until the icing hits the warmth of the cake. Then you can smooth it over so easy that you friends around you will wonder with great jealousy how you did it so gracefully.
None of my concern is to as such, for it comes easy. I have no problem doing the work that is given to me, but figuring out my goals are never easy. Therefore, I only whine over my final grades. While they are almost always just decent, making scores that the upperclassmen in the class make, I wish for more. I thirst to make top marks. I do not wish to take those classes and not go far. If I am to take a class that is advanced, I wish not to be JUST on the level of a senior, who decide to do their bare minimum. I wish to go far and beyond, to make scores that will cause my descendants cheer in their grave. I hunger for approving smiles and jealous glares of my teachers and peers.
Nothing feeds me more than proving someone wrong, except my love for goodwill and the Lord, of course. And I speak that with wide curves, but they are tight from any persons perspective. Because of course, I don't wish to prove those who have faith in me wrong. I want to do them justice. Do myself Justice.
By now you are wondering, why does she not behave this way all the time?
It's simple. I'm a funloving person, I like to be everywhere at once and nowhere at all. I like to run, jump, shout, and scream. I like to annoy and pester, help and advise. I'm just decent. Only human, and not a perfectionist. I fear the monotonous vibes that I sometimes feel.
I merely would enjoy my grades and expectations at best.
I was able to get my classwork done in Trigonometry!
Unfortunately for me, I realized my project for my AP Language class is due the day of finals...
DUN DUN DUNN. Which I believe is June 15. For that class at least.
I need to record scenes constructed by moi. Let us hope I remember to ask people this weekend for help. I need actors. >.> HAHA That's what youth groups are for! Kidding.
I hope that I can get through all of my finals quick and stable. I don't want to fail a class because of some dumb final. I've been spending a lot of time praising and praying, and no time with my face in the books. >.<
I need to start studying. Ughh. I really don't see it necessary, but I don't want to fail.
It's funny how people think I'm not as smart as I am because of my appearance. They probably perceive that I do bare minimum in my classes, and that I take just what is required of me. What they don't know is that I take the most difficult of classes for some people, but for me... they are like putting icing on a cake. It's difficult, until the icing hits the warmth of the cake. Then you can smooth it over so easy that you friends around you will wonder with great jealousy how you did it so gracefully.
None of my concern is to as such, for it comes easy. I have no problem doing the work that is given to me, but figuring out my goals are never easy. Therefore, I only whine over my final grades. While they are almost always just decent, making scores that the upperclassmen in the class make, I wish for more. I thirst to make top marks. I do not wish to take those classes and not go far. If I am to take a class that is advanced, I wish not to be JUST on the level of a senior, who decide to do their bare minimum. I wish to go far and beyond, to make scores that will cause my descendants cheer in their grave. I hunger for approving smiles and jealous glares of my teachers and peers.
Nothing feeds me more than proving someone wrong, except my love for goodwill and the Lord, of course. And I speak that with wide curves, but they are tight from any persons perspective. Because of course, I don't wish to prove those who have faith in me wrong. I want to do them justice. Do myself Justice.
By now you are wondering, why does she not behave this way all the time?
It's simple. I'm a funloving person, I like to be everywhere at once and nowhere at all. I like to run, jump, shout, and scream. I like to annoy and pester, help and advise. I'm just decent. Only human, and not a perfectionist. I fear the monotonous vibes that I sometimes feel.
I merely would enjoy my grades and expectations at best.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Quick thought.!!
I feel like I'm a little baby walking through the snow. My father in front of me and each footprint is a big jump for me to follow in his footsteps. His shoes are indeed TOO big to fill. Yet I just barely make the jumps.
With room to grow into his shoe size. I follow willingly and devoted to him. I will never purposefully bite the hand that nourishes me and committed the most loving act just for me. When I do, my heart pains and I feel as though I have failed him. But knowing I am forgiven. That is wonderful in itself.
With room to grow into his shoe size. I follow willingly and devoted to him. I will never purposefully bite the hand that nourishes me and committed the most loving act just for me. When I do, my heart pains and I feel as though I have failed him. But knowing I am forgiven. That is wonderful in itself.
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